This week I did a thing. A big thing. Something life changing and wholly terrifying. Hang tight . . . I will get to that in a minute. For now, let me say this: I would be willing to bet that all of us at one point or another have had a dream. A dream that is so big it scares us a little . . . maybe it scares us a lot. After all, what are we told all our lives? Never. Stop. Dreaming. The second we stop dreaming is the second we stop growing. I have heard it said that we are either green and growing or ripe and rotting. I want to continue to grow. In all aspects of my life. Well, with the exception of my waistline.
Why is it then that some of us, myself included, give up on our dreams so quickly or easily? Things get difficult so we decide we aren’t worth it? As we get into it a little do we suddenly realize that it’s going to take a lot more work than we had imagined to begin with? Or, as in my life, do we sometimes want the end result without having to put in the blood, sweat and tears it is going to require? I used to have a coffee cup that said, “I thought I wanted a career . . . turns out I only wanted the paycheck.” Although I haven’t ever really just wanted a paycheck I think it rings true in a lot of areas of life. I have known people who want the “title” and “glory” of a certain job position or career but they don’t want the responsibility that goes along with it. They want the new car or house but not the payment. I, personally, would have loved to achieve the magic measurements of “36x24x36” sought after by most women, but I didn’t want to work or sacrifice anything to gain it.
My dream changed in relation to my weight and body. I set out 15 months ago to become who I knew God wanted me to be physically. I wanted to be healthier. I needed to be. I wanted to make better decisions regarding my health so that I could maybe write a different ending to Lacy than what she was going to have if she had stayed on the same unhealthy and even deadly path. I renewed my sense of discipline and determination. I decided I would not stop until I am at a healthy weight . . . whatever it takes and whatever that looks like for me. I am still not finished losing weight. Not by a long shot. But something miraculous has happened in this process. I have grown unsatisfied with the status quo of my own life. Keeping to the simple, easy and predictable for me is no longer leaving me content. I want better. Now, I don’t mean materialistically. I mean, spiritually, emotionally, mentally. I want to be and do what I am called to be and do. I am meant for something more than what I am currently doing and who I currently am. Do I know exactly who that is right now or what that looks like? I sure wish I could say yes. I do know this . . . I am headed there. And I also believe that I now know SO MUCH MORE about myself than I ever did before. I know how hard I am willing to fight for something. I know how much pain, emotional and physical, I am able and willing to endure and fight through to survive. I know. I just know on a different level than I did a little over a year ago.
This last year has been gut-wrenching on a level that most people don’t know and wouldn’t even understand. But I have come out of it a different person than I was going in. I am stronger. I am more confident – not cocky, but confident. By God’s grace, I am more courageous and more fierce (in a good way) than I have ever been. Because of the things that have come into my life and made me stronger and more determined, I am willing to take some huge steps of faith. Some may even call them crazy. And I’m not sure they aren’t right! I am able to leave my comfort zone to step into what I believe God wants for me and my family.
So what is this big thing that I did? After prayerful consideration, I gave my notice at my job. I just left the comfort and stability of full-time employment with an established and stable company to come home and work my CBD business full-time. Am I scared? HECK YES, I AM! I am scared that I will fail. I am scared that I won’t make enough to help my husband take care of the bills and other things we have in our lives to take care of! But (there’s always a but, right?) we also believe that I am doing exactly what God wants for our family. I have a child who needs me right now. I mean they both do, but one is leaving for college in the fall and the other needs me a little more than he ever really has before. In a different way. My parents are aging. They are both 80 and I have already felt guilty for not being there to help with certain things for them. And now, I will have the time to do that. In 2008, I was hired by a wonderful couple to work in their dental office. Dr. Chuck and Pat Schonberger. I am so grateful to them for everything they did for me while I worked for them. I am also grateful to the current owner dentist I work with for the things he has done for me. Mostly I am grateful that they all allowed me to leave work to see my boys events during the last 12 years. The thing that most working moms will tell you is this . . . I HATE feeling guilty for leaving work early to go to a sporting event or something for the boys. But I equally HATE feeling guilty for staying at work and missing those events when I couldn’t get away. Thankfully, the latter rarely happened. I didn’t have to miss much. And for the last 12 years, I had dreams that I brushed aside.
I want to encourage all of you with this. My decision is what is right for me. Your decision is what is right for you. But know this. You don’t have to explain that decision to anyone. You can do what you feel is best for you and know that you are worth whatever it takes to be happy wherever you are and in whatever you are doing. But I also hope this week, you feel inspired to pick up that box that contains your dreams. There is a future in there so bright, it’s almost blinding. Take a step closer to what you really want. If your current path is taking you away from those dreams and purposes you have always wanted for your life, correct your course. Align your path with the unique road map designed just for you. It’s time to give your dreams room to roam, stretch, breathe, and come to pass. I am blessed to have an opportunity to change the lives of people with NewYou and their CBD products. NewYou is such an amazing company with amazing field and corporate leadership. I have business mentors as well as spiritual and life mentors. I have heard one of those mentors, Mary Dockery, quote another amazing leader with NewYou, Shar Weinrauch, time and again by saying, “It’s time to dust off your dreams.” I don’t care what you use to dust them off, but get to work. Your future YOU depends on it.
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